I have been doing it so long I might as well say I've been doing it forever; it's a very disagreeable habit. Every time I sit in church -- watching how people worship, and listening to prayers and sermons -- I imagine what some outsider who has dropped in for a visit might be thinking -- some gigantesque intellectual, a skeptical professor perhaps -- as he or she observes what is done and said in the presence and name of an "awesome God." It is interesting how I often I find myself squirming when I yield myself to such fantasies. Of course, I recognize nearly any practice, system, custom, ritual or ceremony can appear impenetrable to the uninitiated eye; even an opera, play or symphony can be esoterica to those untrained in the finer arts. Nevertheless, whenever I find myself in church playing the role of the outsider, I discover that I am often utterly uncomfortable. It all seems so strange. No. It all seems so weird, even insane.OK. Perhaps I've gone too far. I admit this has not happened to me in all churches, nor has it happened to me in any one church all the time. But I have indeed witnessed what is clearly insanity, especially in those lower-type churches, ones given to informalism; you know, those pentecostal churches that have open mic Sundays. I tell you, when I have sat in services where there is virtually no order, authority or clearly defined leader, I am doing all I can not to call 911.
Last night I had the same sort of feeling -- that feeling of identifying with someone else in a psychological act of transpositionalism (invented term) -- when I was watching the debate. Like a fool, perhaps, I was thinking about what my more liberal friends were thinking and feeling when they watched and heard Sarah Palin. Indeed, I found that if I projected some of my own types of biases onto the motives of my friends, or if I actually absorbed into myself the sort of biases they articulated beforehand, I found, as you can expect, that I was terribly uncomfortable. Sarah Palin looked, at least at times and even if for but the briefest moments, like some sort of automaton. She was a bit like a kind of sexy android from Heavy Metal or Blade Runner. OK. Perhaps that says too much, but it did appear, at times, not so much that she was reading from a teleprompter but that she had become one.
Forgive me. I like Sarah Palin. I like her in many ways because she comes from my sort of stock. I know that. I get it. I've seen babes with dirt under their fingernails; I've dated one or two: Sarah Palin is not the sort of woman a man would have ever had to hold the branches for while bushwhacking in the Great North Woods. In fact, she wouldn't need the branches held because she would be leading the way. Sarah Palin is clearly, at least to some, a BMW -- a beautiful mountain woman.
And I also like Sarah Palin in a sort of inversion of the way my father hated the New York Yankees, who always, or so he spat, won: she's the underdog challenging the well-heeled and conceited pinstripes in the Beltway. I am rooting for the smaller payroll, the roster of the Lesser Knowns.
But there were times when she made me leave my seat. Not because she was sabotaging something. She wasn't. Nor was she imploding or melting down. But what she was doing was missing opportunities to turn Joe Biden's words around on him. Because she was constantly looking at her notes when Joe Biden was speaking (I recognize that's OK for her to do), she would miss things he said that she could have rebutted without any notes. One example:
When Sen. Biden (apparently wrongly) insisted that John McCain also "voted against funding our troops in Iraq," he added that Sen. McCain did so because there was a timeline provision for troop withdrawal added to the bill. Of course, all sharp debate coaches were probably screaming at the telly, as Mr. Biden had just informed the American people that John McCain had a different but apparently rational reason for rejecting the bill. A shrewder debater would not have given Sarah Palin or the viewers any clues about Sen. McCain's motives. Sen. Biden should have just let it all hang in the obscurity of implication: McCain rejected the bill because he does not care for our troops.
Hurray, the door was wide open, and yet Sarah Palin somehow did not walk through it. And not a more courteous gesture could the gentlemanly Biden make! Here was an opportunity for Gov. Palin to think on her feet: 'Jeez, Joe. Don't you think a timeline is not in the best interests of both our troops and our objectives? Timelines are a bit like an invitation to capitulation via micromanagement of war, for it essentially says to our enemy, "You can stop fighting us now and return to your vicious objectives after we leave on this particular date." No wonder John McCain voted against it. Oh, and by the way, since I am not an archivist in the US Senate, I can't immediately refute your claims. Are you willing to provide our campaign with the documents that prove Sen. McCain -- and Barack Obama -- did what you are asserting?'
And when Senator Biden said this about his campaign's plans for Afghanistan, Sarah Palin missed a real chance to score major points:
"With Afghanistan, facts matter, Gwen.Had Gov. Palin been willing to take a risk now and again and directly challenge Joe Biden's words -- not words two or three years old but those spoken right then -- she might have said this, though prefaced with a laugh:
The fact is that our commanding general in Afghanistan said today that a surge -- the surge principles used in Iraq will not -- well, let me say this again now -- our commanding general in Afghanistan said the surge principle in Iraq will not work in Afghanistan, not Joe Biden, our commanding general in Afghanistan.
He said we need more troops. We need government-building. We need to spend more money on the infrastructure in Afghanistan." [emphasis added]
"That's rather funny, Joe. I wonder if you see the irony. I mentioned using the principles of the surge in Afghanistan. You say they won't work, and then you not only call for a key ingredient to those principles -- 'more troops' -- you spell out pretty much key aspects of the Bush Doctrine: Building governments, investing in infrastructure. John McCain and I very much agree with our military advisers in this key area. I am glad to hear that Barack Obama and Joe Biden agree with us and what John McCain has been working towards since the beginning of the War on Terror: peaceful democracies in the Middle East and its surrounding regions."
These are but two of the several if not many opportunities missed by Sarah Palin. And I have to say that, without even identifying with my liberal friends, these missed opportunities irked me. But I recognize that these were not fatal misses; but had they been properly exploited, they may have proven fatal to Barack Obama's campaign.
I can understand, really, why Sarah Palin might make my liberal friends squirm. There were times that I found her "Aw, shucks" and "Doggone it" affects a little too premeditated: at times her attempts to appeal to "Joe Six-Pack" (Oiks!) seemed far too much like political artifice. The down-to-earth stuff was just a bit too canned for me, too designed. I know that a bunch of midwestern- and western-types in the media defended Gov. Palin's diction, pronunciation and cadence as all very familiar and real. Maybe I am tone deaf to Gov. Palin; maybe this is my east coast snobbery rearing its head. But the fact is I don't mind casual speech; I engage in it all the time. It just seemed that there were moments her idioms were too forced to be authentic.
OK. Where do I stand in all of this? Well, I should think my last post was clear. She won the debate because Joe Biden was not able to separate himself from her by the leagues and leagues his vast experience should have provided him. As I said, he was merely adequate, which is equal to failure. She came across as calm and confident; and she seemed bright in a way that was not simply cognitive: she seemed to actually sort of radiate. There is a light about her; well, perhaps not so much a light as an aura, a lambent gleam, a shimmer. And she looks unflappable; she was not daunted at any point.
Lastly, she won because of one thing, one very important thing: No one in this entire election season has been under as much pressure -- not by a long shot -- as Gov. Palin. Her every pore and corpuscle, every preposition and conjunction, have been scrutinized in a very compressed time: she comes in with virtually no national experience, and yet she did not waver, nor did she embarrass, nor did she fail. Her family has been abused, mocked and derided. Her parenting has been doubted, questioned, and dismissed. Her background has been explored and found wanting. And yet, without so much as a sigh, when she finished debating, she waved and smiled at America, walked to the center of the stage, thanked Joe Biden, and then took her little baby in her arms -- a seamless transition from one role to another.
She is impressive, I'll say that.
Peace.
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